When you change the way U look at things, the things U look at change...

well, it's been a long time since I wrote in this blog, now here we go, first post in 2009,YAY...

I just Thought my life is so perfect now, I have a wonderful familly, awsome friends, and I live in the peaceful place, just perfect. but why, at the moment I have a problem that really hard to forget, just a little problem but affact me soo much.

As long as I live in this world, I never imagine that I have someone that I really care of, someone that brings a peaceful circumtances around me, and that person is real. But now, he just have a happiness and a problem at the same time, a problem that can make huge damage, he may don't know or don't really think about it, I wanna help, show him the right path,but I can't do anything to make it better.

am I a bad person? I mean, he never told me about his secret, the secret that finally I know it by myself. I really scared, you know,I scared that I cant help at all, I scared that when he find out that I already know for a long time, he will left me.

yeah, it's not my bussiness anyaway, who am I? maybe I'm nothing for him, but I really love him, he's more than like brother to me, I know he is in the wrong path, I wanna help him, but how???

I try to get over it, try to thinking somethingelse, but I can't. it really bother me.Tell me, God, what should I do? give me some chance to help him... Give me some chance to feel that I'm usefull in this world, at least for people around me.

I just try hard to think positive, the best thing that I can do...

as you know, if you change your mind and need me, just call me, cos' I'm still here...

love,
nurieen

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when you change the way you look at things
The things you look at change
I can see the world so differently
Seeing things your way
There's a path that's right in front of me
That's been calling me for days
And I know that when you walk with me
It will be for always

You give me everything I have
Everything I need
You are the reason why I believe

18101998---18102008...

It has been 10 years, crazy huh???

I still remember how he looks like,
The way he smile,
The way he angry,
I remember how he call me,

sometimes we fought like we hate each other, but then we realize that we love each other so much, I love him more than anything, even now...

There's funny, huh??? for all this years, I still remember all about him, I know what he sounds like, his expression, oh yeah, he love video games,and sometimes we play all night long,hahahha, my mom don't much agree about that...lol.

He always be a good boy, I've asking for half of my life, why must he?why not me?
I mean, everybody like him.who doesn't? Until now, even 10 years later, many people still feel sad and remember him well, at least he have a really good friend who always think about him and be his bestfriend forever.

Otherwise, if it happened to me, it won't affect much. As long as I know, my sibling will be happy if we switch position, they will be much happier if they have him than me.My parents, it would change much, practically, they loosing a children anyway, no matter it's me or him.And about my friends, well, I believe they will be feel sad, but it won't be long, they will move on with their life and left my memories behind. different with him, at least he has someone that feel soo lost when he left, until now...

It has been 10 years that I don't see your smile,
It has been 10 years that I don't hear your voice,
It has been 10 years that we don't play together,
It has been 10 years that we don't fight anymore,
It has been 10 years that you don't ruining my life,
It has been 10 years that I imagine how you looks like today,
It has been 10 years that I saw my mom crying whe she remember you,
It has been 10 years that I wodering why it must be happened,
It has been 10 years that you leave me, and
It has been 10 years that you always live inside of me.

maybe you already gone, but your soul life in me,
I miss you so much, but I agree to letting you go,
I accept that you're not with me again...

There so much things going on in my life, even good or bad, but you are the strongest reason that keep me alive today...

I never understand why life can give so much and take so much away...

What I understand is, I love you so much and I don't want to back into an old me, I just trying to be like you wanted to do, to be someone like you...

You give me 7 years living with you, to be your sister, a chance to know you and make me to be a better person, thanks...

Maybe you leave me, but I never ever forget you,^_^

rest in peace, brother, you can keep my promises..

luv always,
nurieen
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The Last days of Ramadhan...

Gila yah, hari-hari terakhir di Ramadhan bener2 terisi kegiatan buka puasa tanpa ada yang bentrok, padahal ga disengaja lowh!EDAN!!!hahaha...

Jum'at 19 September 2008 bukpus + Sahur on the road( ga tidur nih gw ampe pagi..)
Sab'tu 20 September 2008 Buka Puasa bareng anak2 PSMUT di Lapiazza gading...
Minggu 21 September 2008 Buka Puasa sama tmen2 diluar...
Senin 22 September 2008 Jenguk sepupu gw lahiran, skaligus bukpus di luar sama
keluarga gw, n terawih di Istiqlal.
Selasa 23 September 2008 Harusnya bukpus di sushi tei sama ank2 TI,eh malah di
Ichiban sama anak2 PSMUT,heheehe..
Rabu 24 September 2008 Bukpus di Pizza Hut Gading sama anak2 SMP skligus Karokean
Kamis 25 September 2008 Bukpus bareng anak2 Vootenleg skalian ke Panti asuhan.
Jum'at 26 September 2008 Nonton Laskar Pelangi sama anak2 PSMUT, sorenya bukpus
sama temen2 diluar...
Sab'tu 27 September 2008 Harusnya Buka Puasa 68, cuman karena badan gw sakit
ga bisa di gerakin, plus pala sakit, yasudah buka dirmh,
tapi tetep bareng2 karna kakak gw dateng kerumah bserta
istri n' ponakan gw yang lucuuu bgt, huh kangen dya bgt...
Minggu 28 September 2008 Nonton Laskar Pelangi dgn keluarga gw, dan rajanya buka
puasa di dalem Bioskop, hahahaha....

Gw ga tau deh bsk sama selasa ada acara apa,kyknya bsk nonton laskar pelangi untuk yng ke 3 kalinya sama anak2 smp(hehehehe..) tapi ga tau deh gw, bsk les pengganti, sore pula, jadi liat ajah ntar...

Duwh, gw bingung, koq bisa ya jadwal gw kayak gitu, udah gitu pulangnya selalu malem bgt, ntah karena emang dipengaruhi setan(gossip2, karokean,hehehe) ato dipengaruhi malaikat( teraweh brg,nyabung tadarusan,hihihi)...

Pantesan aja badan gw skarang rasanya renteg bgt, abis kena angin malem yang dashat itu terus sih,trus pala gw juga nyut2tan laghi, nasib...nasib...

Tapi walaupun capek dan menguras tenaga, gw seneeeng bgt koq, ktemu org2 yang special dalam hidup gw, yang selama ini mungkin udah ga ketemu laghi,tapi agak nyesel juga sih, knapa bukpus SMA itu gw lewatkan, padahal gw kangen banget sama anak2 ituh, huhuhuuhuu..

Walaupun Ramadhan kali ini gw ga hatam Al-Quran(hiks3x..) tapi tetep bermakna koq dengan kegiatan2 yg walaupun melelahkan tapi sangat menyenangkan!

yah, hidup itu kan harus seimbang tul tak?skali2 keluar dari kebiasaan baik dan jadi melenceng dikit ga apa2 lah, asal jangan keterusan!hahahaha...

dah ah, sgitu dulu...
I hope I will see you again, Ramadhan, My all time favorite month!

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