Weirdo or not???!!.....

I've been thinking much lately, and somehow I just realize that I'm kinda weird, what a surprise!...lol
I'm not like the regular girl, I'm not get into shopping, make up, salon or anything that most girls doing. Well, maybe that just because I'm bit tomboy like everybody said, but I like doing that things, the problem is I have some stuff that more interesting to do. Something, even when I'm too lazy, itching to do that. guess what? if you a good friend of mine, you'll know it, yup, computer.

I'm crazy about computer and music. I'll see the beauty in them. Music + computer?? way much better. It helps me to express my feeling. I'm hard to show my feeling to everybody else, but with them, I can express it easily.

ask me, "choose one,.. one hour at mall or 5 hours in front of computer?" hmm...that would be an easy question for me. Because I never bored, there's always something that I can do with computer. Even I can write a song with it. I'm not good in poetry and beleive me, the lyrics is so lame...lol but I do that because I love doing the music, it's just the magical happen.

ask me,"choose one,... chat with your friends by phone or by msn/mesenger/forum?". on the phone, I always can't start a conversation. I dunno why, my brain just stuck. But in the messeger, I can flow anything that I want to say.

It's hard to me to say " I love you", I care about you", "you're my bestfriend", even "thank you" and other stuff, directly to the person. but on the internet, That words just slips out whenever I want to say them. Don't get me wrong, I'm not cocky or something, I just don't know how I must to say it..(huh). I prefer to make a video on the computer for hours than say it directly.

Until now, I never ever tell my personal feeling to anybody, never told my problem to anyone, Even to my mom. Maybe you think that I am an open person, all people think that, but hey, actually I'm a close person. Did I ever told you my secret? the trully secret? NEVER! but on the blog like this, I can do that easily! Amazing, huh!

I love you guys, but somehow I can't tell you anything, with unknown reason. It's like I have my own world, when I'm in other world, I can't trust anybody to keep my secret. Like I can't trust my secret to alliens....lol sorry guys!

That's up to you to decide I am a weirdo or not. well, I know some of my fellow friends like Cindy, Andrew, brooke,etc on BGF and myspace said I'm 100% weird...hahahaha..

The role in my Life...

Well, now, in the middle of the night, I just want to remember what I've been done in my life. I had been wrote something like this on BGF.

You may think I'm the laziest person in the world, at least my mom thought that....lol But when I look back, I think I already did some cool stuff, Not soo big ofcourse, just a little things that makes my life is not soo empty....lol

I've been learning about :
- Basic knowledge when I was in school
- English (well, not so good...lol)
- Some cool subject in my college
- Keyboard
- piano
- guitar(just little bit)
- Karate
- Some aplication on Computer
- Islam
- The magic of music
- The meaning of friendship and the important of Familly
- The power of prayer and hard work.
- The important to spread love and peace on earth
- etc

I've been found:
- Billy Gilman, who gives me inspiration in my life with his songs and his believe about dreams.
- Mattie J.T Stepanek, through with his poems makes me feel better whenever I face a rough times, remember me about my heartsongs and the peace in my heart, also the beauty of peace and love.
-Muhammad saw, who show me the greatest effect of patient, and most of all introduce me to Allah , who means everything to me, He always beside me.
- All people that had much influence in my life.

I've been performanced as :
- Singer
- piano player
- guitar player
- drum player(few times)
- MC( just once..lol)
- poet
- few roles in drama

I've been made :
- Websites
- graphics; wallpaper, icon, layout, signature, etc.
- animation
- Birthday Videos
- midi
- lots of story
- songs
- poems( believe me, they're not close to o.k...lol)


ugh, That's it, I can't think anymore because I'm too sleepy to remember anything. I believe there's something more and some achievements that I've got. well, they're not many anyway...lol