I've been thinking much lately, and somehow I just realize that I'm kinda weird, what a surprise!...lol
I'm not like the regular girl, I'm not get into shopping, make up, salon or anything that most girls doing. Well, maybe that just because I'm bit tomboy like everybody said, but I like doing that things, the problem is I have some stuff that more interesting to do. Something, even when I'm too lazy, itching to do that. guess what? if you a good friend of mine, you'll know it, yup, computer.
I'm crazy about computer and music. I'll see the beauty in them. Music + computer?? way much better. It helps me to express my feeling. I'm hard to show my feeling to everybody else, but with them, I can express it easily.
ask me, "choose one,.. one hour at mall or 5 hours in front of computer?" hmm...that would be an easy question for me. Because I never bored, there's always something that I can do with computer. Even I can write a song with it. I'm not good in poetry and beleive me, the lyrics is so lame...lol but I do that because I love doing the music, it's just the magical happen.
ask me,"choose one,... chat with your friends by phone or by msn/mesenger/forum?". on the phone, I always can't start a conversation. I dunno why, my brain just stuck. But in the messeger, I can flow anything that I want to say.
It's hard to me to say " I love you", I care about you", "you're my bestfriend", even "thank you" and other stuff, directly to the person. but on the internet, That words just slips out whenever I want to say them. Don't get me wrong, I'm not cocky or something, I just don't know how I must to say it..(huh). I prefer to make a video on the computer for hours than say it directly.
Until now, I never ever tell my personal feeling to anybody, never told my problem to anyone, Even to my mom. Maybe you think that I am an open person, all people think that, but hey, actually I'm a close person. Did I ever told you my secret? the trully secret? NEVER! but on the blog like this, I can do that easily! Amazing, huh!
I love you guys, but somehow I can't tell you anything, with unknown reason. It's like I have my own world, when I'm in other world, I can't trust anybody to keep my secret. Like I can't trust my secret to alliens....lol sorry guys!
That's up to you to decide I am a weirdo or not. well, I know some of my fellow friends like Cindy, Andrew, brooke,etc on BGF and myspace said I'm 100% weird...hahahaha..
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