20 December....

yeah, that date which is 3 days ago, was my birthday. Well, I'm 19 now! hmm, 19 is a big number, right??..lol

In this age, I realize something that people said , " Life is not Immortal" is right. All things in this world is just temporary. you don't agree with me, do you?? well, let me give you a little example and explain what I thought...

first, you go to kindergarden(sp??) or elementry school. In there you'll meet some friends, teacher, playground, etc. At that moment you think that's your life, those are your friends, You like playing and hang out with them, but when the graduation comes, you promise to them even just in your heart, that you'll never forget them.

But what happen when you're in junior high?? you find another friends, you change your personality, and ofcourse you're not playing swing or barbies or anything that you do when you are younger. even you find love there. But the point is everything is different and you somehow enjoy it. and said "it is the best part in my life".

Then you move on to the high school, different circumtances, different friends, different in everything, but the pattern is same.

When you meet your old friend who you don't see in forever, you will feel weird. hmm.. You don't?? well I do. I don't act like the old nurieen, and does he/she. We change even in the old days we always punch each other and laugh together, we are so close. But everything change, those moment just temporary.

What I'm saying is I belive LIfe is just a repetation. You're born,become toddler, child, teenager, adult, married, having kid or not, elder, than die. Every step in life is same.Basicly They have the same pattern.It's just like a reff. of life endless song.

So, why I must try so hard in life if in the end I'll die???What's forever for?? well, there's some typical answer for it, but who cares? God must know it. He has a plan, and I don't need to know what it is.

All I have to do is trying my best for this life. Because it's not for my parents, friends or anyone else, it just for me. When I'm trully happy doing things and don't bother anyone, why I must not to do it???why I must have a wonderful life, brigther future. For what? it's for me. I want it.

I always try as far as I can to be greatfull in my life. Thanks for what I already have. Because what I have at the momment just temporary. My familly, my friends, and other stuff will suddenly gone. Sooner or later.Even when I agree or not, everything will change. and before it change, I hope I have an amazing memories in every single step of my life. I will try so hard to be happy and makes people around me happy, to use my time as much as I can to be usefull for me and others, because I know I'll have a wonderfull story in the future.

I always believe there will be another life after I die, and it's accepted in my brain, it's logic.

"Dream Big, because you NEVER know what might happen" - Billy Gilman-

DisaSter Chat Party!!!!

well, there was another chat party last saturday, I mean, last Sunday, ugh,time differences, crap!!!..lol anyway, unlike usual, I came on time at 9 o'clock. Then I was shocked, there were about 66 people there! Holly Crap! that was a record On chat party. I thought it would be fun to have so many people on the chat, But I was wrong.

At first, I don't have any idea what was going on.Many people talk, umm I mean, type, so fast, and it caused a headache. Most of all said, even scream " when Billy will come again???" Oh come on, He never come. What you see earlier before the official chat was a fake Billy, He's not real. How long until they understand that he is not Billy. Some of BGF member and also the staff convinced them about that. But, uh.. I don't know, what kind of brain that they have, it said so many time, over and over again, but they still didn't understand and screamed!

More thing that make the party worst is when Andrew and other staff told us to go the forum frontpage to break a record for the most online today. But what we have??? there's only about 35 people who understand that instruction. Hello?? there is 80 people on the chat, and you just click the link and wait! How hard to do that!!

But not all the part of chat was bad. The point to have this chat is to launch the new BGF which is really awsome. The staff made it almost a year and it really a great work. I like every single of it, except you don't use green again for the layout...lol

I really like chat party, I mean the old chat party! Don't send any invitation on myspace or anywhere else again, or we won't have crazy usual chat party again...lol

love you guys, BGF is awsome and Billy rocks!!!

49th BirthdaY!

Kemaren hari selasa adalah ulang tahun mamaquw tercinta yang ke 49! Waduh, salah satu hari yang paling sibuk tahun ini... jadi begini ceritanya(hehehe)..

Jam 1/26 pagi gw ud bangun bwat shalat trus siap2 ke kampus sambil bernyanyi "happy birthday" bwt nyokap, nyampe sana gw kuliah sampe jam 9.

Lalu gw ngerjain tugas kalkulus yang bikin pala pusing, tuh tugas blom selesai juga waktu gw masuk kelas kalkulus 3 sekitar jam 1, gw pasarah aja deh, kumpulin tuh tugas...

Setelah itu sekitar jam 3-an gw ada latihan di PSMUT, walah ud cuapee gw tuh, latihannya sampe jam 7-an, itu gw juga udah izin karna gw mo ngambil kue bwat Ultahnya nyokap...

Naik ojek ke carefour bwt ngambil kue, ehhh... ditengah2 hujan, yasuwwlah gw keujanan n' basah semua karna abang ojeknya ga ada jas ujan..huhuhuuhu...dingiin... nyampe di carefour gw diliatin mulu, trus ada yang nanya lagi: " neng, diluar ujan ya???" huh... yaiyalah, ga liat yagh gw basah kuyub begitu, dasar orang iseng...

Setelah ngambil kue gw balix kerumah, itu sektar jam 1/2 9 malem, gw mandi, bersih2, dll, trus acara potong kue deh ama buka2 hadiah.. plus nyanyi juga tentunya, hehehe... nyokab gw seneng, gw ikutan seneng dech...

abiz itu kita makan2, pake macet pula lagi, trus balix lagi kerumah, itu sekitar 1/2 1 an.... huuh...

gw ga langsung tidur, soalnya kasur gw blon di seprein, yasudah, gw seprein dulu semprot, beres2, baru tidur... itu sekitar jam 2-an..huhuuhhu.

Hari yang melelahkan sekaligus menyenangkan...

HAPPY 49TH BIRTHDAY, MY LOVELY MOM! ^-^