Just being Myself...

well, seperti biasa, gw lagi nunggu download-an, Lagu2nya David Archuleta, kasian yah blog ini, gw baru sadar, gw baru nulis kalo nganggur di internet, mana isinya ga ada yang penting lagi, hihihiihi, but no one want to read this blog anyway, at least they can't stand to read entire blog, so I'm Save...lol.

dimulai darimana yah, sesuai judulnya aja deh, about me today...

hmmm...,yah, mungkin lo udah tau kalo gw tuh lagi males banget(tapi, kapan yah gw ga pernah males,hahahaha). tapi beneran loh, semester ini bener2 parah, mungkin karena gw udah ga ada jadwal lab, kuliah pun jarang,ngajar yg biasanya setiap minggu, sekarang cuman 2 minggu, dan ga ada kerjaan yang datang,hehehehe....

well, seperti judulnya, I'm just being myself and try to honest to myself what I really want to do.When I found some new friends they always ask me "why you are so quite,come on, tell your story!".I always said, I don't have one or I don't really remember anything... I'm not lie, that's true, for me, life is run so fast, and my past is not really important topics, I just like to keep it for myself that time, because, I think if I share it that moment, the value of that memories will be disapear. Don't get me wrong, I like sharing things or story with other people, but I need the right time so I'm not loosing that memories, Like the time when I write in this blog.It's weird huh! I know...lol.

That's why I really miss my old friends, because they already spend lots of time with me and nearly understand about me and know how to handle a weird friend like me...lol. They never complain if I don't tell them some story, or when I look sad and prefer not to tell them what happen to me, or some personal reason that they want to know, even what happened with me lately.Because They know that, someday, in the right time, I will tell them everything that they want to know without asking it. And I'm glad that I have them.

But, life is always move, there's always something new, and I must face it. I have learn that if you want to move on, you must let go something behind, because you can't bring it to the future.I never know what might happen tomorrow,maybe I will die tommorow, But, What I know is, I have something that I must do, and that's why I surive until now, I'm not done yet, And I hope I will not give up till I accomplish it.

That's why I'm weird....lol. No, I 'm not weird, I'm just unique(hahaha...tetep yah bela diri,^_^).Everyone is unique, and that's make world so beautiful. I don't want pretend to be somebody else, because I don't like it. Well, maybe if I'm being me, I will never have a close friend for entire of my life.It sucks, yeah, I know, But as long as I don't see everyone in my life is suffering, That's enough.Because I'm just too love them. That's all. I try hard to be a better person.

Like I said before, maybe I don't have nothing, But I can give everything to others.

Luv ya,
nurieen
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"Smokey Mountain Memories"

You ought to go north somebody told us
Cause the air is filled with gold dust
And fortune falls like snow flakes in your hands
Now I don't recall who said it
But we'd lived so long on credit
And so we headed out to find our promised land

Just poor Smoky Mountains farm folk
With nothing more than high hopes
So we hitched our station wagon to a star
But our dreams all fell in on us
Cause there was no land of promise
Though it's a stuggle just keepin' sight of who you are

Oh and these northern nights are dreary
And my southern heart is weary
As I wonder how the old folks are back home
But I know that they all love me
And they're all thinking of me
The Smoky Mountains memories keep me strong

You know I've been thinkin' a whole lot lately
About what's been and what awaits me
It takes all I've got to give what life demands
You go insane if you give in to it
Life's a mill and I've been through it
I'm just thankful I'm creative with my hands

Oh and these northern nights they're dreary
And my southern eyes are teary
As I wonder how the old folks are back home
But I'll keep leanin' on my Jesus
He'll love and guide and lead us
The Smoky Mountains memories keep me strong

If I'll keep looking to the father
Keep our heads above the water
While the Smoky Mountains memories keep me strong