18101998---18102008...

It has been 10 years, crazy huh???

I still remember how he looks like,
The way he smile,
The way he angry,
I remember how he call me,

sometimes we fought like we hate each other, but then we realize that we love each other so much, I love him more than anything, even now...

There's funny, huh??? for all this years, I still remember all about him, I know what he sounds like, his expression, oh yeah, he love video games,and sometimes we play all night long,hahahha, my mom don't much agree about that...lol.

He always be a good boy, I've asking for half of my life, why must he?why not me?
I mean, everybody like him.who doesn't? Until now, even 10 years later, many people still feel sad and remember him well, at least he have a really good friend who always think about him and be his bestfriend forever.

Otherwise, if it happened to me, it won't affect much. As long as I know, my sibling will be happy if we switch position, they will be much happier if they have him than me.My parents, it would change much, practically, they loosing a children anyway, no matter it's me or him.And about my friends, well, I believe they will be feel sad, but it won't be long, they will move on with their life and left my memories behind. different with him, at least he has someone that feel soo lost when he left, until now...

It has been 10 years that I don't see your smile,
It has been 10 years that I don't hear your voice,
It has been 10 years that we don't play together,
It has been 10 years that we don't fight anymore,
It has been 10 years that you don't ruining my life,
It has been 10 years that I imagine how you looks like today,
It has been 10 years that I saw my mom crying whe she remember you,
It has been 10 years that I wodering why it must be happened,
It has been 10 years that you leave me, and
It has been 10 years that you always live inside of me.

maybe you already gone, but your soul life in me,
I miss you so much, but I agree to letting you go,
I accept that you're not with me again...

There so much things going on in my life, even good or bad, but you are the strongest reason that keep me alive today...

I never understand why life can give so much and take so much away...

What I understand is, I love you so much and I don't want to back into an old me, I just trying to be like you wanted to do, to be someone like you...

You give me 7 years living with you, to be your sister, a chance to know you and make me to be a better person, thanks...

Maybe you leave me, but I never ever forget you,^_^

rest in peace, brother, you can keep my promises..

luv always,
nurieen
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The Last days of Ramadhan...

Gila yah, hari-hari terakhir di Ramadhan bener2 terisi kegiatan buka puasa tanpa ada yang bentrok, padahal ga disengaja lowh!EDAN!!!hahaha...

Jum'at 19 September 2008 bukpus + Sahur on the road( ga tidur nih gw ampe pagi..)
Sab'tu 20 September 2008 Buka Puasa bareng anak2 PSMUT di Lapiazza gading...
Minggu 21 September 2008 Buka Puasa sama tmen2 diluar...
Senin 22 September 2008 Jenguk sepupu gw lahiran, skaligus bukpus di luar sama
keluarga gw, n terawih di Istiqlal.
Selasa 23 September 2008 Harusnya bukpus di sushi tei sama ank2 TI,eh malah di
Ichiban sama anak2 PSMUT,heheehe..
Rabu 24 September 2008 Bukpus di Pizza Hut Gading sama anak2 SMP skligus Karokean
Kamis 25 September 2008 Bukpus bareng anak2 Vootenleg skalian ke Panti asuhan.
Jum'at 26 September 2008 Nonton Laskar Pelangi sama anak2 PSMUT, sorenya bukpus
sama temen2 diluar...
Sab'tu 27 September 2008 Harusnya Buka Puasa 68, cuman karena badan gw sakit
ga bisa di gerakin, plus pala sakit, yasudah buka dirmh,
tapi tetep bareng2 karna kakak gw dateng kerumah bserta
istri n' ponakan gw yang lucuuu bgt, huh kangen dya bgt...
Minggu 28 September 2008 Nonton Laskar Pelangi dgn keluarga gw, dan rajanya buka
puasa di dalem Bioskop, hahahaha....

Gw ga tau deh bsk sama selasa ada acara apa,kyknya bsk nonton laskar pelangi untuk yng ke 3 kalinya sama anak2 smp(hehehehe..) tapi ga tau deh gw, bsk les pengganti, sore pula, jadi liat ajah ntar...

Duwh, gw bingung, koq bisa ya jadwal gw kayak gitu, udah gitu pulangnya selalu malem bgt, ntah karena emang dipengaruhi setan(gossip2, karokean,hehehe) ato dipengaruhi malaikat( teraweh brg,nyabung tadarusan,hihihi)...

Pantesan aja badan gw skarang rasanya renteg bgt, abis kena angin malem yang dashat itu terus sih,trus pala gw juga nyut2tan laghi, nasib...nasib...

Tapi walaupun capek dan menguras tenaga, gw seneeeng bgt koq, ktemu org2 yang special dalam hidup gw, yang selama ini mungkin udah ga ketemu laghi,tapi agak nyesel juga sih, knapa bukpus SMA itu gw lewatkan, padahal gw kangen banget sama anak2 ituh, huhuhuuhuu..

Walaupun Ramadhan kali ini gw ga hatam Al-Quran(hiks3x..) tapi tetep bermakna koq dengan kegiatan2 yg walaupun melelahkan tapi sangat menyenangkan!

yah, hidup itu kan harus seimbang tul tak?skali2 keluar dari kebiasaan baik dan jadi melenceng dikit ga apa2 lah, asal jangan keterusan!hahahaha...

dah ah, sgitu dulu...
I hope I will see you again, Ramadhan, My all time favorite month!

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Just being Myself...

well, seperti biasa, gw lagi nunggu download-an, Lagu2nya David Archuleta, kasian yah blog ini, gw baru sadar, gw baru nulis kalo nganggur di internet, mana isinya ga ada yang penting lagi, hihihiihi, but no one want to read this blog anyway, at least they can't stand to read entire blog, so I'm Save...lol.

dimulai darimana yah, sesuai judulnya aja deh, about me today...

hmmm...,yah, mungkin lo udah tau kalo gw tuh lagi males banget(tapi, kapan yah gw ga pernah males,hahahaha). tapi beneran loh, semester ini bener2 parah, mungkin karena gw udah ga ada jadwal lab, kuliah pun jarang,ngajar yg biasanya setiap minggu, sekarang cuman 2 minggu, dan ga ada kerjaan yang datang,hehehehe....

well, seperti judulnya, I'm just being myself and try to honest to myself what I really want to do.When I found some new friends they always ask me "why you are so quite,come on, tell your story!".I always said, I don't have one or I don't really remember anything... I'm not lie, that's true, for me, life is run so fast, and my past is not really important topics, I just like to keep it for myself that time, because, I think if I share it that moment, the value of that memories will be disapear. Don't get me wrong, I like sharing things or story with other people, but I need the right time so I'm not loosing that memories, Like the time when I write in this blog.It's weird huh! I know...lol.

That's why I really miss my old friends, because they already spend lots of time with me and nearly understand about me and know how to handle a weird friend like me...lol. They never complain if I don't tell them some story, or when I look sad and prefer not to tell them what happen to me, or some personal reason that they want to know, even what happened with me lately.Because They know that, someday, in the right time, I will tell them everything that they want to know without asking it. And I'm glad that I have them.

But, life is always move, there's always something new, and I must face it. I have learn that if you want to move on, you must let go something behind, because you can't bring it to the future.I never know what might happen tomorrow,maybe I will die tommorow, But, What I know is, I have something that I must do, and that's why I surive until now, I'm not done yet, And I hope I will not give up till I accomplish it.

That's why I'm weird....lol. No, I 'm not weird, I'm just unique(hahaha...tetep yah bela diri,^_^).Everyone is unique, and that's make world so beautiful. I don't want pretend to be somebody else, because I don't like it. Well, maybe if I'm being me, I will never have a close friend for entire of my life.It sucks, yeah, I know, But as long as I don't see everyone in my life is suffering, That's enough.Because I'm just too love them. That's all. I try hard to be a better person.

Like I said before, maybe I don't have nothing, But I can give everything to others.

Luv ya,
nurieen
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"Smokey Mountain Memories"

You ought to go north somebody told us
Cause the air is filled with gold dust
And fortune falls like snow flakes in your hands
Now I don't recall who said it
But we'd lived so long on credit
And so we headed out to find our promised land

Just poor Smoky Mountains farm folk
With nothing more than high hopes
So we hitched our station wagon to a star
But our dreams all fell in on us
Cause there was no land of promise
Though it's a stuggle just keepin' sight of who you are

Oh and these northern nights are dreary
And my southern heart is weary
As I wonder how the old folks are back home
But I know that they all love me
And they're all thinking of me
The Smoky Mountains memories keep me strong

You know I've been thinkin' a whole lot lately
About what's been and what awaits me
It takes all I've got to give what life demands
You go insane if you give in to it
Life's a mill and I've been through it
I'm just thankful I'm creative with my hands

Oh and these northern nights they're dreary
And my southern eyes are teary
As I wonder how the old folks are back home
But I'll keep leanin' on my Jesus
He'll love and guide and lead us
The Smoky Mountains memories keep me strong

If I'll keep looking to the father
Keep our heads above the water
While the Smoky Mountains memories keep me strong

The "X"..

Ada apa dengan "X"???

"X" adalah sekelompok manusia tidak waras yang terbentuk tidak sengaja. Begini ceritanya(apaan seh?hahaha)!!!

Jadi, dahulu kala, waktu masih semester-semester awal, qta2 sering maen bareng,trus photo studio bareng juga. Suatu ketika(wallah..) beberapa dari kita liburan ke bali dan beli oleh2 kalung, berhubung bandulnya yang ada dan bagus cuman "X" maka dibelilah itu kalung. Dan kebetulan lagi, setelah diitung-itung jumla kita emang 10, huahahaha, trus kita becandaan deh bilang geng "X", padahal geng darimana, wong anak2nya edan semua, kalo ngumpul buat seneng2 doank,hahhahahaha...

trus tadi kan buka puasa bersama untuk anak kelas 3, eh ternyata tak disangka-sangka yang dateng ya cuman ber 10 itu,hahahaha.... emang qta2 eksis sih kalo begituan, hihihi...

duwh, gw baru nyadar, I miss them sooo much, selama ini kan kita jarang ketemuan lagi, tapi aneh juga ya, bisa kebetulan kumpul lagi bareng anak2 gila itu, prinsip kami " kalo anak wars bukan teman kami"...hahahahaha.... wong edan semua..


huhuhuh, I love the so much deh, You guys rock!!!!

love,
nurieen

Kuliah lagi...kuliah lagi...

sebenernya gw binggung mo nulis apa, yah dari pada bengong nungguin download-an video2 billy yang baru mending ngisi blog deh...

hmm...Hari-hari pertama kuliah begitu membosankan! hahahha....

Beneran lowh, jadwal gw semester ini jelek banget, dari senin sampe jum'at kecuali rabu kuliah dari jam 07.30 s/d 09.10(hari senen sampe jam 10:00). Sedangkan untuk rabu, huh, tetep satu pelajaran yang dimulai jam 12.30! aduwh EDAN!

orang2 mah baru mulai kuliah jam 9, gw malah udah pulang, huh, ternyata gw merasakan jadi pengangguran juga! well,itu termasuk donks, abis gw mati gaya, sisa hari itu ngapain coba??? bukannya gw mo sombong yah, tapi semester2 sebelumnya ituh gw kerja rodi bagai kuda yang tak punya waktu luang(you knowlah gara2 apa??), tapi skarang, waktu gw banyak kosong! huh!

ada saran ga neh,gw mesti ngapain? yah sekarang sih gw bawa laptop ke kampus byar internetan gitu, biar ke kampus ada gunanya dikit,hahahaha!!!

Tapi gw harus tetep semangat! tul ga? masa waktu gw terbuang sia2 hanya karena ga ada kegiatan yang terjadwalkan! Ayo nurieen! pikirkan kembali sesuatu yang bisa dikerjakan, selain TA tentunya!hahahaha!!!


Life is too short to be Wasted!

Semangat!
-nurieen-

Wonderfull week in my life

Gw ga tau harus berkata apa tentang salah satu minggu terindah yang pernah gw alami selama ini….
Well, I feel happy and sad at the same time…

Dimulai dari hari pertama gw dateng, huh walaupun gw masih harus mengerjakan kerjaan2 yang banyak dan harus membawa ke bandung, tapi tetep aja gw berangkat(hehehehe, nekat deh pokkoke). gw ga penah berpikir bahwa situasi yang akan gw alami jauh berbeda dari tahun lalu, I really miss that time….huhuhuhu…

Hari berikutnya, hm… latihan seperti biasa dan bergossip ria,teteup, hahahaha…. Dan, umm…. Belajar yoga yang melelahkan itu namun sangat berguna, thanks ya udah mau ngajarin kita jurus2 itu,hehehehe….

Next day, adalah insiden yang menyadarkan gw sekaligus memalukan gw (you know lah, yang itu tuh, aduh!). Seumur hidup gw, ga pernah tuh yang namanya lepas kontrol seperti itu, dan itu terjadi di lingkup ini, dan rajanya ini yang ke 2 kali, hahahahaha…. Betapa malunya gw, huh, pasti deh masih dibahas sampai berabad-abad mendatang, dan beritanya menjalar lebih cepat dari api, huh dasar anak2 rempong(gw juga sih, hehehehe). Tapi disaat itu juga, gw merasa gw tuh ga sendiri, I'm not perfect and I must face it. But it make me realize that, hey, I'm not alone, unfortunately, I have friends who really care to me, and never want to see me sad and fall. I must accept that. This is the time to open my own world to others, I don't want to be a weirdo all the time. Thanks guys, all the support that you gave to me make me realize that it's alright to share my feeling to you, my bestfriends.

Kamis, rintangan-rintangan yang ada selama ini terpecahkan dengan tidak baik disini. Semua orang udah lengkap dan juga merasa tegang. Gw tau koq, walaupun keliatannya mereka asik-asik aja, tapi pasti didalam sama khawatir dan tegang kaya gw. Sampe pelatih2 gw pun ikut stress. Gimana ga stress, keadaannya tuh bener2 huh, di luar kendali, ada aja masalah sepanjang perjalanan ini, kalo gw jadi dia mungkin gw udah masuk RS Jiwa(hahahaha, pindah donk kuliah gw bu, cuman beberapa meter…).Tapi bener2, latihan dan kebersamaan yang paling optimal yang pernah gw rasaain.

Jum'at, excited but scared at the same time. Masalah2 baru bemunculan, gw bisa ngerasaain bahwa anak2 tuh panik dan ketakutan .But I convince to myself that it will end up good. Datanglah waktu kompetisi itu. Sejak awal mulai gw udah, damn this is not good, really not good, but I try my best to give all I have.Ternyata bukan gw aj yang merasa seperti itu, banyak temen-temen gw juga, tapi qta semua ga mau ngebahas, apalagi comment dari yang nonton ga begitu positif seperti kps dulu, huh, seperti dalam mimpi, ingin rasanya ngulang lagi and ngerasa bagus, tapi tetep aja ga bisa, gw selalu ingin percaya kalo semuanya baik-baik aja, tapi bener2 ga bisa, kenyataannya banyak penyanyi yang sakit dan suaranya ilang,walaupun gw merasa maksimal tapi mana mungkin gw mengharapkan performance tadi itu bagus. Gw bersikap seolah2 ga ada masalah, ya seneng2 seperti biasa, apalagi sama orang2 gila itu, lo ga bakalan mungkin bisa diem dan memikirkan hal2 yang bikin stress tadi,hahahahaha…….

hari pengumuman, tapi gw udah pasrah lah, ga terbwah aja udah syukur...hehehe... hari itu adalah hari jalan2, qta ke kampung daun, dan tetep yah foto2 ria,hahahaha. sepanjang perjalanan nyanyi terus bu, aduh emang kita2 eksis sih,hehehehe.. abis perut pada kenyang, ya apalagi kalo ga belanja, tapi bukannya gw belanja malah maen tebak2an, abis penuh banget sih, males deh jadinya, mending ngobrol2 dan again, bergossip ria,huhuhuhuhhu...

dan saat pengumuman itu pun datang, well. I never imagine a high result, but I expect much, that's all I can do. I must told you I really scared, it's because I already know that it will not good, and the fact come, and yeah it's not good, and also not bad,just silver. I try hard not to cry at that time, because all my friends is very down and I know if I looks like them it will cause too much for them.I know I can't hide my sadness, but at least I prefer not to show it to other people.Tapi yah, itu ga bertahan lama, setelah di wisma, ada kejadian yang,uh gw udah ga tahan lagi deh, tiba2 member baru yang diva itu(hehehehe..)dan dengan sangat baik mau bantuin qta2 nyanyi tuh pamit dan gw ga nyangka dia tu bisa sesedih itu niggalin kita, huh, dia mesti tanggung jawab karena bikin gw dan temen2 gw yang tadinya mencoba tegar, menangis kembali,hahahaha..
We are not crying because the result, but we are crying because this beautiful week and feeling that we already build and have is will gone soon. Personally, I feel like, ugh, this wonderfull dream will end up soon, and I don't want it happened, here, I have a relationship that I never imagine in my wild dreams,I found new friends, bestfrinds, and even familly. I found someone who care with me, and it really, ugh, i dunno the word that can describe my feeling. I really lucky that I ever felt that feeling, I don't want to loose it. never want.

Allah paid my big fault in the past with a wonderfull life. I can't say how much thankfull I am.

Thanks guys, you are really awsome, I hope we can learn our fault from the past and become much more stronger.

And, teteup ya, bergossip ria,hehehehe... well, mau ga mau, mesti diakuin bahwa itu yang bikin kita "bersatu" betul ga???? hahahahaha......
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UNTUKKU

Kemana langkahku pergi
Slalu ada bayangmu
Ku yakin makna nurani
Kau takkan pernah terganti

Saat lautan kau sebrangi
Janganlah ragu bersauh
Ku percaya hati kecilku
Kau takkan berpaling

Walau keujung dunia, pasti akan kunanti
Meski ke tujuh samudra, pasti ku kan menunggu
Karena ku yakin, Kau hanya untukku

love,
nurieen

"Accepting myself"

well, sometimes, I ask myself, who am I? what I have done in my life? am I usefull to this world? and sometimes I thought I'm nothing...

But when I think about that lately, I really feel ashame to have that thought when I know Billy and Mattie almost all my life...

I, maybe don't have any special gift, I just can play piano a little, some computer abillity, and random things that I can do..

maybe I don't have a true friend, at least close friend, I don't know why, it just something wrong with me, it's always because of me and who I am.

some of my friends often told me, " nurieen, you're genius! and genius people is weird, like you!". First time I heard it, oh, come on, you know me and my brain, I mean, if I' m genius like you said, why I can't graduate with high GPA? ok, it can change, but surely that I can't graduate with cumlaude!
but when I think it over, it's kinda true. since I was little, I can fixed anything that broken without any knowlege, I can learn many programs without any tutorial, I can play keyboard, piano, guitar, bass, suprisingly, I can played drum well at the first time I played it. And I just realize, sometimes, when I'm alone, I'm dreaming amazing things but danger and knowing how to make it. one time I did that and it works but cause much trouble.It scared me, but I'm smart enough to choose the right and wrong.

About the weirdo things, yeah, I know that's true.I have told you in this blog before, I dunno, I just like have my own world, and scared to share it with others, even my mom. Maybe that's why I can't have a close friends.

But, who cares about I have a true friends or not, who cares about I'm genius or not, I just care that now, I accepting myself. someone that love her familly and friends, who never want to see other people sad and suffering, always want to see hope and peace in this world, and always trying the best that she could to make a better world.

I have lost my brother, and I don't want to loose anyone else in my life, I don't want to feel that regretfull again....

I accept that, even I have Nothing, but I can give Something to others.

luve ya,
nurieen
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If they would find a cure when I'm a kid
I could ride a bike and sail on rollerblades, and
I could go on really long nature hikes

If they would find a cure when I'm a teenager
I could earn my license and drive a car, and
I could dance every dance at my senior prom

If they would find a cure when
I'm a young adult
I could travel around the world and teach peace, and
I could marry and have children of my own

I could... if they would
I could... if they would

If they would find a cure when
I'm grown old
I could visit exotic places and appreciate culture
And proudly share pictures of my grandchildren

If they would find a cure when
I'm alive
I could live each day without pain and machines, and
I could celebrate the biggest thank you of life ever

I could... if they would
I could... if they would

If they would find a cure when
I'm buried into heaven
I could still celebrate with my brothers and sister there, and
I could still be happy knowing that I, knowing that I, "was a part of the effort"

-by Mattie J.T. Stepanek( miss u alot)-

Agustus ceria!...lol

well, what's special about agustus??? hmm, let's see,a lot of works....hahaha...
huh, liburan tapi lebih sibuk dari kalo nggak liburan, huhuhuhuhu, tapi gw seneng koq bulan ini, ga tau seneng aja ^_^(weird,huh??)

mulai dari KP, awalnya gw pikir tuh ribet and susah, tapi fun2 aja, apalagi pembimbing gw tercinta, baek banget(huh, lebay mode on,hehehe). Tapi beneran dia tuh baik lowh, trus karywan yang laen juga baek2, ngebantu bgt(sorry ya waktu kerja nya di ganggu,hihihi). Tapi gw ga enak juga sih ama pembimbing gw, ngerepotin mulu kerjanya,gw banyak maunya sih, lebih tepatnya kampus yang nyusahin(uups!). maaf ya pak dan yang sabar yah,hehehehe...

trus, agustus, yah berarti latihan dan latihan,hehehe. New competition is coming, and I love it! walaupun skill nyanyi gw ga naek2 dan ga pernah bagus, tapi gw seneng koq nyanyi2 bareng2 lagi apagi sama pelatih-pelatih dan teman-teman quw tercinta. gw tuh heran deh, knapa yah gw bisa di terima, padahal gw sadar lowh, suara gw itu ga ada bagus2nya, udah volumenya kegedean, suka ngaco lagi,(wah temen2 gw bahagia dan puas nih kalo baca,akhirnya nyadar, huakwkakaka).but I'll try to do my best! because I love music and always do!

huh, tambah lagi kerjaan2 lab yang menanti, flash persentasi blom kelar nih, huhuhu, bang hotlan udah nanya2 mulu,hehehe, sorry yah lama, abis gmana ya, sorry aja, sibuk nih..hahahahaha..

oh iya, murid2 piano-quw yang mau aja di boongin ama gw,hehhehehe. keep practicing yah, awas lowh kalo ngga! ku makan,^_^

dan masih banyak job2 termasuk acara 17-an dan lainnya yang menanti untukquw kerjakan, huh, bit tiring,but i really love these day,this month is the best in 08 so far...

well, I love this poem, written by Mattie J.T stepanek, sung by Billy Gilman(yeah, I know..lol)

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Song Of The Wind

listen to the wind
If you listen carefully
You will hear soft notes
Listen with your mind
Listen with your heart
You will hear a Heartsong
A soft relaxing song
That reminds... you of

Peace and Harmony
Harmony and love
Peace and harmony and love

If you hear this song
Always remember it
For if you do
You can teach it
To other people too
And they will forever
Forever they'll remember
Their Heartsongs...

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May Hope and Spirit is always in your heart!

luv ya,
nurieen

What a Wonderful world!!

Gw lagi sedih nih, banyak hal yang bikin gw sedih, dari ga punya duit, UTS ancur2an, sampe masalah percintaaan(halah...hahahaha...) Tapi gw tetep semangat koq!!! masih banyak ynag menanti di depan, even it's good or bad, I just keep trying to do my BEST!

Allah create us to survive and become a good person, so let's try to do our best to be a better person, no matter what happen in your life!!! SEMANGAT!!!

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I see trees of green........ red roses too
I see em bloom..... for me and for you
And I think to myself.... what a wonderful world.

I see skies of blue..... clouds of white
Bright blessed days....dark sacred nights
And I think to myself .....what a wonderful world.

The colors of a rainbow.....so pretty ..in the sky
Are also on the faces.....of people ..going by
I see friends shaking hands.....sayin.. how do you do
Theyre really sayin......i love you.

I hear babies cry...... I watch them grow
Theyll learn much more.....than Ill never know
And I think to myself .....what a wonderful world

The colors of a rainbow.....so pretty ..in the sky
Are also on the faces.....of people ..going by
I see friends shaking hands.....sayin.. how do you do
Theyre really sayin......
I LOVE YOU


Love,
nurieen

It's time to back to my things...

Libur telah tiba...hahaha.... walaupun masih 2 kali uas lagi sih gw..

Akhirnya punya waktu juga untuk melakukan yang disebut "my things",senangnya...
sebenernya sih gw bingung mo nlis apa, sembari nunggu donloadnya selesai gw nulis blog deh..hmm...

Belakangan ini Gw sempet berpikir tentang hidup,teori gw tentang hidup yang gw tulis waktu lalu masih sama sih sebenernya,cuman pertanyaan lama muncul kembali di kepala gw, seperti lagunya Billy Gilman "What's Forever For?"

Begini loh gw punya beberapa pemikiran :
If God want a peace in this world, why He create worst feeling like hate, jealous etc.
If God want us to make a wonderful world, why He seperate Us into many pieces.
and again, Why God creat Us and all this Universe??

I know it's beyond of my things, but if I think deeply, I dont have any reason to live in this world, I mean as far as I can remember I dont choose to live? I dont choose to have a wonderful family, friends and people around me??

But when I look back, I said to myself,Ihave many reason to not continue my life, but I have lots more to survive in this world.

Like in Billy's song" ...Love is the key"..

maybe it's sound silly and pointless but, Love is the greatest things that god can give to me, I don't care about the reason that God create me,about all bad things that already and will happen to me, if He give that love in my heart, give me to love someone around me,my familly,my friends, give me a change to spread this feeling to anyone else, to sharing what I have in this life, to love a wonderfull things that can happened in this world, and

the most important is giving me some love to trust Him everyday in my life....

All the problem will become much more smaller if I have faith in love that God given to me, it give me a strenght to survive in this rough life,

beside, Life is not that bad afterall, if we can realize the good things that life can brings ^_^

-nurieen-