20 December....

yeah, that date which is 3 days ago, was my birthday. Well, I'm 19 now! hmm, 19 is a big number, right??..lol

In this age, I realize something that people said , " Life is not Immortal" is right. All things in this world is just temporary. you don't agree with me, do you?? well, let me give you a little example and explain what I thought...

first, you go to kindergarden(sp??) or elementry school. In there you'll meet some friends, teacher, playground, etc. At that moment you think that's your life, those are your friends, You like playing and hang out with them, but when the graduation comes, you promise to them even just in your heart, that you'll never forget them.

But what happen when you're in junior high?? you find another friends, you change your personality, and ofcourse you're not playing swing or barbies or anything that you do when you are younger. even you find love there. But the point is everything is different and you somehow enjoy it. and said "it is the best part in my life".

Then you move on to the high school, different circumtances, different friends, different in everything, but the pattern is same.

When you meet your old friend who you don't see in forever, you will feel weird. hmm.. You don't?? well I do. I don't act like the old nurieen, and does he/she. We change even in the old days we always punch each other and laugh together, we are so close. But everything change, those moment just temporary.

What I'm saying is I belive LIfe is just a repetation. You're born,become toddler, child, teenager, adult, married, having kid or not, elder, than die. Every step in life is same.Basicly They have the same pattern.It's just like a reff. of life endless song.

So, why I must try so hard in life if in the end I'll die???What's forever for?? well, there's some typical answer for it, but who cares? God must know it. He has a plan, and I don't need to know what it is.

All I have to do is trying my best for this life. Because it's not for my parents, friends or anyone else, it just for me. When I'm trully happy doing things and don't bother anyone, why I must not to do it???why I must have a wonderful life, brigther future. For what? it's for me. I want it.

I always try as far as I can to be greatfull in my life. Thanks for what I already have. Because what I have at the momment just temporary. My familly, my friends, and other stuff will suddenly gone. Sooner or later.Even when I agree or not, everything will change. and before it change, I hope I have an amazing memories in every single step of my life. I will try so hard to be happy and makes people around me happy, to use my time as much as I can to be usefull for me and others, because I know I'll have a wonderfull story in the future.

I always believe there will be another life after I die, and it's accepted in my brain, it's logic.

"Dream Big, because you NEVER know what might happen" - Billy Gilman-

DisaSter Chat Party!!!!

well, there was another chat party last saturday, I mean, last Sunday, ugh,time differences, crap!!!..lol anyway, unlike usual, I came on time at 9 o'clock. Then I was shocked, there were about 66 people there! Holly Crap! that was a record On chat party. I thought it would be fun to have so many people on the chat, But I was wrong.

At first, I don't have any idea what was going on.Many people talk, umm I mean, type, so fast, and it caused a headache. Most of all said, even scream " when Billy will come again???" Oh come on, He never come. What you see earlier before the official chat was a fake Billy, He's not real. How long until they understand that he is not Billy. Some of BGF member and also the staff convinced them about that. But, uh.. I don't know, what kind of brain that they have, it said so many time, over and over again, but they still didn't understand and screamed!

More thing that make the party worst is when Andrew and other staff told us to go the forum frontpage to break a record for the most online today. But what we have??? there's only about 35 people who understand that instruction. Hello?? there is 80 people on the chat, and you just click the link and wait! How hard to do that!!

But not all the part of chat was bad. The point to have this chat is to launch the new BGF which is really awsome. The staff made it almost a year and it really a great work. I like every single of it, except you don't use green again for the layout...lol

I really like chat party, I mean the old chat party! Don't send any invitation on myspace or anywhere else again, or we won't have crazy usual chat party again...lol

love you guys, BGF is awsome and Billy rocks!!!

49th BirthdaY!

Kemaren hari selasa adalah ulang tahun mamaquw tercinta yang ke 49! Waduh, salah satu hari yang paling sibuk tahun ini... jadi begini ceritanya(hehehe)..

Jam 1/26 pagi gw ud bangun bwat shalat trus siap2 ke kampus sambil bernyanyi "happy birthday" bwt nyokap, nyampe sana gw kuliah sampe jam 9.

Lalu gw ngerjain tugas kalkulus yang bikin pala pusing, tuh tugas blom selesai juga waktu gw masuk kelas kalkulus 3 sekitar jam 1, gw pasarah aja deh, kumpulin tuh tugas...

Setelah itu sekitar jam 3-an gw ada latihan di PSMUT, walah ud cuapee gw tuh, latihannya sampe jam 7-an, itu gw juga udah izin karna gw mo ngambil kue bwat Ultahnya nyokap...

Naik ojek ke carefour bwt ngambil kue, ehhh... ditengah2 hujan, yasuwwlah gw keujanan n' basah semua karna abang ojeknya ga ada jas ujan..huhuhuuhu...dingiin... nyampe di carefour gw diliatin mulu, trus ada yang nanya lagi: " neng, diluar ujan ya???" huh... yaiyalah, ga liat yagh gw basah kuyub begitu, dasar orang iseng...

Setelah ngambil kue gw balix kerumah, itu sektar jam 1/2 9 malem, gw mandi, bersih2, dll, trus acara potong kue deh ama buka2 hadiah.. plus nyanyi juga tentunya, hehehe... nyokab gw seneng, gw ikutan seneng dech...

abiz itu kita makan2, pake macet pula lagi, trus balix lagi kerumah, itu sekitar 1/2 1 an.... huuh...

gw ga langsung tidur, soalnya kasur gw blon di seprein, yasudah, gw seprein dulu semprot, beres2, baru tidur... itu sekitar jam 2-an..huhuuhhu.

Hari yang melelahkan sekaligus menyenangkan...

HAPPY 49TH BIRTHDAY, MY LOVELY MOM! ^-^

Warnet 4 jam!

Lagi di warnet nih, maen paket 4 jam, hmm.. ngapain aja yah???

Lagi dengerin lagu di fhrradio,
kata anak2 di BGF, christmas single Billy Gilman yang judulnya "I'll be home for christmas" sering diputerin. yah, mudah2an gw beruntung bisa dengerin sekaligus rekam tuh lagu.. sekarang lagi dengerin lagu "somebody' hero" nya Jamie O'neal, baru denger, soalnya lagu country, tapi enak juga koq... YAY Go Country...lol

Upload file buat website gw,
seneng deh internetnya ga lemot, jadinya cepet..hehehe..

ngunjungin BGF, (pastinya..lol)

nge-cek email,

download2 video,

ke forum indosiar, trus community.web.id,and forum 68,

cek cpanel website2 gw,

ke myspace, sama liat2 profile orang di friendster plus isi buletin,
jarang2 khan gw menjelajah di friendster...lol

download2 barang2 the sims2,

ngisi blog ini..lol

abis ini ngapain yah?? eh ada GUNBOUND...
duh ud lama bgt ga maen.. account gw msh idup ga ya??ud lebih dari 2 thn nich, kalo bkn baru males lagi deh.. jadi kangen..huhuhuhu...

No way! Account Suspanded, plus all update!!!...lol

Ya ampuun!!!kemaren, account gw yang di community.web.id, tepatnya semua accountnya disana di suspanded!!! Website2 gw beresiko hilang trus forum yg di bikin untuk 68 juga... GW panik nih, sempet mo nyari hostingan yang bayar aj ama temen gw! semakin menambah buruk mood gw belakangan ini, damn!

Tapi untungnya sekarang udah bisa lagi.. huh.. syukurlah..

Waduh,parah ya?? gw kyaknya udah kena Computer Syndrom Akut...huuhuheuhe..

ada temen gw minta ajarin bikin website, dan gw sambut dengan senah hati!! huhuhu.. akhirnya ada yang bisa diajak ngobrol tentang kompi.. setelah setahun ku pendam karna ga pada ngerti juga yang gw omongin..hahaha.. Sebenernya Ilmu gw juga cetek koq, secara gw khan otodidak, jadi blajarnya setengah2, tul tak?? Jadi jangan tertipu oleh gw yah...hahaha..tambah ga jelas deh..

O iya, gw baru ikut UKM loh, namanya PSMUT aka Paduan Suara MUT(tebak aja sendiri sisanya...lol). Tadinya gw mo gabung sama UKM yang berbau-bau komputer, tapi yg gw temuin cuma KJB, itu kayak wartawan gitu deh yang nyari berita bwat majalah kampus. gw daftar jadi layouter-nya. Gw semangat banget tuh, sampe pas selesai wawancara, eh gw kyaknya ga sregh yah?? tau knapa?? mungkin lingkungan juga kali ya??? lagian gw lagi sibuk sama lab, jadi pelatihannya bentrok sama waktu lab.
umm... Kambali ke PSMUT, Seniornya baik2 deh, seneng gw jadinya. Bisa menyalurkan hobi gw (tentunya selain komputer..hehehe..).Trus baru2 ini gw tau juga bahwa sebagian besar dari mereka gila(hahaha... asumsi gw doank koq, jgn diambil hati yah??..lol) . Setelah gw iseng2 maen friendster karna ga ad kerjaan(sebenernya banyak, tapi gw ngga adain, huehehe..), ternyata smakin menguatkan asumsi gw tsb. huhuhuhu...

seneng ternyata ada sejenis gw juga di kampus ini. Sejujurnya yah, setelah lepas SMA gw rada2 jaga sikap alias jaim n' hati2, soalnya kyaknya tmen2 gw tuh gampang tersinggung dan maen perasaan., walaupun qta sering becanda, tapi gw tetep aja jaga becandaai gw, takut kesinggung khan ntar ga enak deh...

--------intermezzo masa2 SMA : mode memory on----------------
dulu, KEbanyakan temen gw cowo, knapa? karna gw lebih suka maen ama cowo. Kalo becanda enak, ga ada yang sakit ati, malah pada menghina dengan lebih kejam lagi...lol Seru jadinya! Tapi tidak menutup kemungkinan dgn cewe2 gila yang khususnya tergabung dalam "DAHINAZZ" hahaha, Sumpah mereka itu gila semua, kalao nge-cengin orang jago cing! berbakat semua, dari lahir.... "DIMANA ADA KITA, DISITU ADA KERIBUTAN" hahahaha...Damn! I miss them soo bad!!!
--------intermezzo masa2 SMA : mode memory off---------------

Sekarang gw susah menghina orang(dalam arti kata becanda loh), abizz kalo gw dengerin cerita orang2 disini, banyak yang emosian, pada sensi... trus cowonya juga ga segila tmen2 gw dulu...

Mudah2an di PSMUT gw betah yakz, walaupun agak bingung juga gw, soalnya setelah setahun lebih tombol "bercanda lepas"nya kekunci mulu, jadinya kalo senior2 becanda, gw hanya bisa terpaku dan terdiam sambil ketawa ga jelas sendiri. karna mode "sok kenal", "sok tau", "ga tau malu", "balasan cepat" dan "penghinaan lebih lanjut" gw telah hilang.. huahahaha, perlu adaptasi untuk mengembalikannya..huhuhuuhuhu...

Kayaknya lama deh, Ayo berusaha!!!hahahaha...

--------------MODe kangen on----------------------------------
I know I have said this things alot in this blog, BUT I just want to let You know that I MISS YA ALL SO MUCH..! NOTHING in this world will replace you guys! you're the most craziest and funniest friends I ever have! Love you guys!
--------------Mode kangen off---------------------------------

How do I live...

When I heard this song, I remember something. The memories that makes me feel sad, happy, greatfull an thankfull in one time.sometimes makes me cry. At that time, I sang this song for just some jokes, because I don't understand what its lyrics means, I just sang it for someone who I really care, love and change me to be a better person.

[i]How do I,
Get through the night without you?
If I had to live without you,
What kind of life would that be?
Oh, I
I need you in my arms, need you to hold,
You're my world, my heart, my soul,
If you ever leave,
Baby you would take away everything good in my life,[/i]

I don't realize, at that time, that he means everything to me. I love him so much. Even I always fight with him. hmm.. he always be my best friend, he's so funny. he is the only one that understand me, at least try to understand me. but I don't notice that, because I really suck and evil kid!

And tell me now
How do I live without you?
I want to know,
How do I breathe without you?
If you ever go,
How do I ever, ever survive?
How do I, how do I, oh how do I live?

Without you,
There'd be no sun in my sky,
There would be no love in my life,
There'd be no world left for me.
And I,
Baby I don't know what I would do,
I'd be lost if I lost you,
If you ever leave,
Baby you would take away everything real in my life,

without you, mhhh... until now, I don't konw why you must through all this stuff. why bad things happen in a good person. why? he's smart, kind, funny, he's like an angel. it better me than him. I'm an evil kid. that's true! it's not only in my mind! everybody thought that.

[i]Please tell me baby,
How do I go on?

If you ever leave,
Baby you would take away everything,
I need you with me,
Baby don't you know that you're everything,
Real in my life?

And tell me now,
How do I live without you,
I want to know,
How do I breathe without you?
If you ever go,
How do I ever, ever survive?
How do I, how do I, oh how do I live?

How do I live without you?

How do I live without you baby?

I even didn't cry when you left me. I don't believe it happened. it just a dreams, a verry awfull dream. but it also the most beautiful 6 months with you. I got closer with you, and I realize that it's not good to be a bad girl, he teached me alot about life. about how I can love something, how I express it and it's important to show that.

But the most regret that I ever had is I never told him that I love him, i care about him, and most of all he's my angel. I just think it was enough to makes him laugh, happy, play with him all day, and give him his favorite toys in the rest of his life. I wish he knows that I already change,proud to be my brother. I wish he smile at me from heaven and happy at there. I Love YoU.



Now I go on, after I found another song from another gift kid, he left me too, left all people who makes him an inspiration , included me, Mattie JT Stepanek :

It happened anyway
(billy Gilman)

When jamie died
I didn't understand
The eternity of my sadness
I wish I could have prevented it

Whe I rest in bed
Dream about how I could have
Lived and play with my brother
How I wish that I could have saved him

If wishing could bring him back
He'd be here with me today
But than I remember....
It happened anyway

Whe I look at pictures
And imagine what he would be like
Now a dozen years old
I wish I could have saved him from agelessness

If crying could bring him back
He'd be here with me today
But the I remember...
It happened anyway

When I think of why and how
He was with us and he left us
I wish I could have prevented it
And stopped his death, and saved him from
Never needing breath for birthday candles...
For birthday candles

If Wishing could bring him back
He'd be here with me today
But then I remember

When Jamie died I didn't understand
Oh, but then I remember
It happened anyway
It happened anyway

Weirdo or not???!!.....

I've been thinking much lately, and somehow I just realize that I'm kinda weird, what a surprise!...lol
I'm not like the regular girl, I'm not get into shopping, make up, salon or anything that most girls doing. Well, maybe that just because I'm bit tomboy like everybody said, but I like doing that things, the problem is I have some stuff that more interesting to do. Something, even when I'm too lazy, itching to do that. guess what? if you a good friend of mine, you'll know it, yup, computer.

I'm crazy about computer and music. I'll see the beauty in them. Music + computer?? way much better. It helps me to express my feeling. I'm hard to show my feeling to everybody else, but with them, I can express it easily.

ask me, "choose one,.. one hour at mall or 5 hours in front of computer?" hmm...that would be an easy question for me. Because I never bored, there's always something that I can do with computer. Even I can write a song with it. I'm not good in poetry and beleive me, the lyrics is so lame...lol but I do that because I love doing the music, it's just the magical happen.

ask me,"choose one,... chat with your friends by phone or by msn/mesenger/forum?". on the phone, I always can't start a conversation. I dunno why, my brain just stuck. But in the messeger, I can flow anything that I want to say.

It's hard to me to say " I love you", I care about you", "you're my bestfriend", even "thank you" and other stuff, directly to the person. but on the internet, That words just slips out whenever I want to say them. Don't get me wrong, I'm not cocky or something, I just don't know how I must to say it..(huh). I prefer to make a video on the computer for hours than say it directly.

Until now, I never ever tell my personal feeling to anybody, never told my problem to anyone, Even to my mom. Maybe you think that I am an open person, all people think that, but hey, actually I'm a close person. Did I ever told you my secret? the trully secret? NEVER! but on the blog like this, I can do that easily! Amazing, huh!

I love you guys, but somehow I can't tell you anything, with unknown reason. It's like I have my own world, when I'm in other world, I can't trust anybody to keep my secret. Like I can't trust my secret to alliens....lol sorry guys!

That's up to you to decide I am a weirdo or not. well, I know some of my fellow friends like Cindy, Andrew, brooke,etc on BGF and myspace said I'm 100% weird...hahahaha..

The role in my Life...

Well, now, in the middle of the night, I just want to remember what I've been done in my life. I had been wrote something like this on BGF.

You may think I'm the laziest person in the world, at least my mom thought that....lol But when I look back, I think I already did some cool stuff, Not soo big ofcourse, just a little things that makes my life is not soo empty....lol

I've been learning about :
- Basic knowledge when I was in school
- English (well, not so good...lol)
- Some cool subject in my college
- Keyboard
- piano
- guitar(just little bit)
- Karate
- Some aplication on Computer
- Islam
- The magic of music
- The meaning of friendship and the important of Familly
- The power of prayer and hard work.
- The important to spread love and peace on earth
- etc

I've been found:
- Billy Gilman, who gives me inspiration in my life with his songs and his believe about dreams.
- Mattie J.T Stepanek, through with his poems makes me feel better whenever I face a rough times, remember me about my heartsongs and the peace in my heart, also the beauty of peace and love.
-Muhammad saw, who show me the greatest effect of patient, and most of all introduce me to Allah , who means everything to me, He always beside me.
- All people that had much influence in my life.

I've been performanced as :
- Singer
- piano player
- guitar player
- drum player(few times)
- MC( just once..lol)
- poet
- few roles in drama

I've been made :
- Websites
- graphics; wallpaper, icon, layout, signature, etc.
- animation
- Birthday Videos
- midi
- lots of story
- songs
- poems( believe me, they're not close to o.k...lol)


ugh, That's it, I can't think anymore because I'm too sleepy to remember anything. I believe there's something more and some achievements that I've got. well, they're not many anyway...lol

Puasa yukz...

Bulan puasa datang kembali...

seneng deh, bisa tadarusan bareng, ngumpul sama temen2 di komplek, buka puasa bersama dan jadinya ketemu sama temen2 lama yang gw kangen banget....

dahulu(huh) waktu masih kecil, kerjaan gw cuma di mesjid, mesjid dan mesjid..
pas SMA kerjaan gw keliling buka puasa bareng, sambil bercanda tawa ria, walaupun dulu gw dikenalnya bisa dibilang bukan nurin, teman"quw yang "baik hati" memanggil dengan sebutan2 ; ndut, bola, preman (huh) kebanyakan bikin dosa daripada pahalanya karna nge-cengin orang mulu(termasuk gw juga...lol), tapi masa2 itu yang ga bisa dilupakan.. gw jadi kangen dipanggil dengan sebutan2 itu, dan merasa aneh kalo dipanggil nurieen...huhuhuhu..aneh ya??? hehehe..

Banyak yang bilang bulan puasa itu sekalian pengurusan badan, kalo bagi gw malah penggendutan badan...huahahaha.. bayangin aja kalo makan mah biasa 2x sehari, tapi pas tadarusan..wuidih... dikasih makanan yang mengenyangkan juga menggendutkan ditambah makannya itu malam hari...huuhuh...jadi deh...hahahaha..

MAY ALLAH GIVES ME THE WISDOM AND AN OPORTUNITIES TO BE A BETTER PERSON IN THIS FASTING MONTH, ALSO TO SPREAD MY LOVES FOR EVERYONE AROUND ME ESPECIALLY MY FAMILLY AND MY FRIENDS, AMIN.

hhm...Miss this Blog!!

Whualloo! Jumpa lagi dengan nurieen! hahahaha...
gosh, I miss this blog!
sudah lama tak beposting ria, maaf ya, abis lagi sibuk nih ngurusin website2 yang terlantar... duh pusing deh gw..

anyway, Kuliah Mulai lagi! tau ga sih lo?? jadwal gw tuh FULL dari senin ampe sab'tu! whooaahhh! Bisa kurus gw??hehehehe..

Kangen deh ama masa2 SMA, duh udah 1 tahun nich tidak becengkrama dengan meraka.. huh..miss that time till death, but Life goes on, right??

CD Baru Billy Gilman keluar, ada cara beli di internet tapi mahal dan beresiko??! hmm.. beli.. ngga.. beli..ngga...beli...ngga..beli..ngga beli..hehehehe.. terlalu beresiko, lagian gw udah punya lagu2nya, so mendingan nuggu temen yang pada mau keluar negri, jadi gw nitip, Ayo teman2 quw yang baik, kalo mo jalan2 keluar negri jangan lupakan daku yah!!hahaha..

masih banyak nih ceritanya, tapi udahan dulu yach, kapan2 disambung lagi(cailah..)

WOOHOO!

MERDEKA!!!

Tujuh belas agustus tahun empat lima, itulah hari kemerdekaan kita....

wah, Tujuh belas agustus dateng lagi ;

perlombaan-pun banyak

Lapangan jadi rame

anak2 komplek pada ngumpul buat ngurusin acara 17-an

Mengingatkan gw pada perjuangan para pahlawan yang mati-matian pengen kebebasan sampe mengorbankan diri sendiri, sementara gw asik2an aja terjajah secara tidak langsung....

PokkoKe INDONESIA Tetap JaYa!!!

MERDEKA!

Remembering Mattie...

Matthew Joseph Thaddeus Stepanek
July 17, 1990 - June 22, 2004

Thursday, June 22 marks two years since Mattie passed away.

Mattie died on June 22, 2004, just three weeks before his fourteenth birthday. But he left us the gift of his Heartsongs, which are his legacy, and our comfort and inspiration.




Please pass this on. Remember mattie, and all he has done.
This one's for peace, this one's for the good child who only wanted a better world.



This is for the little boy who wasn't scared to write his beautiful poems.
This is for the little boy who could get up infront of millions of people and speak about how he felt.



This is for the little boy who came into everyone's hearts,
and when he left -- he left us a message in our hearts, a love message.



This is for the loving mother, who gave us this beautiful boy.
This is for the beautiful eyes watching us in heaven.

"One of the highlights of my career was the opportunity to meet Mattie and share his words with the world through the power of music. Mattie changed my life and I'll miss him.
Whenever a great soul is lost, the world is a sadder place. Yet, I think Mattie's message of peace and hope will continue for a long time to come.
Whether you're 8 or 80, Mattie taught all of us that we could choose to live with hope and play after every storm as he did

We've lost an extraordinary poet, peacemaker and friend."
-- Billy Gilman (Singer, Stepanek's Friend)



This is for the friend, prankster, and peacemaker.





This one's for all the people who pass this message on. This is for the people who really care about the beauty in the world. There will be peace someday, and just to let you know -- This boy was part of the effort

"...I'll love you forever,
I'll like you for always,
As long as there's Heaven,
Together we'll be."
-- Jeni Stepanek (Mattie's Mother)


| Mattie's Website | MDA Official | Mattie's Books |



To pass this message on, press reply, then copy everything.
Then make your own bulletin saying "REMEMBER MATTIE STEPANEK"

Tantowi Yahya goes to Fan fair(ketemu billy ga ya??)

Fan fair adalah ajang musik country besar di Amerika. Banyak artis Country perform disana, Banyak banget, ya termasuk Billy Gilman tentunya. Tantowi itu nyanyi pada sesi Global Party, isinya 5 negara terpilih nyanyi disana. dia nyanyi selama 30 menit termasuk 2 lagu Indonesia Bengawan solo dan tau apa judulnya, Dapet Pujian Pula. Coba cari di google aja pasti banyak deh ceritanya.
Gw taunya dari temen gw yang ngepost di thread Billy yg gw bkin di indosiar..

nih foto Billy di fan fair :



Well, Good Luck Tantowi...

Taylor + Flu....lol

ughh...Flu melanda dari semalam nonton American Idol.Menyiksa sekali, mungkin karna udah 2 minggu ga olahraga jadinya gini deh..
Bytheway, anyway, Busway(apan sih), Acaranya bagus loh, gw seneng Elliot nyanyi lagi sama Marry J. mereka berdua bagus banget, suara Elliot keren, pokkoke Top deh..
dan gw seneng acara banyak kejutan dan kelucuan hahaha.. Clay Aikan tampil dan udah beda bgt, tambah cakeb...
Taylor menang,gak kaget, bukannya apa2 soalnya gw udah tau di BGF ada yang ngomong..
Taylor menang pada saat gw sakit flu...hahaha...
Good job Taylor..

Happy 18th BirthdaY Billy!!

May, 24th was a Billy 18th BirthdaY!
YAY! I celebrated it with some member of BGF! We heard him LIVE on the internet radio, even there's too many Comercials but we still had a great times! I was jealous when some people called the radio and talked to him, ofcourse I can't do that...ughh..

we did a cool project too, we made(actually Kellye made it) a birthday Video for him, if you want to see it, just click:

www.billygilmanfans.com/multimedia/video/bdayvideo.wmv

I Just can't believe that he is already 18 and I also can't believe I'am 18. That's bit scary how time flies..it just like yesterday I heard Billy for the first time, singing "One Voice", yeah, longer than that...lol

It has been 6 years, full of joy, sadness, experiences that I can't forget...
Gosh..and I'm still the pathetic girl who stuck on Billy...hahahaha...

SUPER BIG CHAT PARTY!!!

Hari minggu kemaren ada Chat Party di BGF(Billy Gilman Fans)! ahhh..... ternyata kemaren itu kerjasama ama radio internet FHRR, mereka puterin single barunya Billy " Gonna Find Love". Gue Nyeseeeel Banget dateng telat, pas gw dateng, tuh lagu udah di puterin 2 kali!! Tapi karena para DJnya baik baik hati dan tidak sombong, mereka puterin lagi dan gw Bisa dengerin deh, 2 KALI! walaupun udah ga boleh lagi(batasnya cuma 3 kali)!

THE SONG WAS AWSOME!!! THANKS JEREMY AND ORLANDO! BOTH OF YOU ARE MY FAVORITE DJ' EVER!YOU GUYS ROCK!

Yang telat bukan gw doank, Cynthia, Courtney dan ada beberapa lagi juga telat. Andrew malah telat banget, tapi dia tepat waktu untuk ikut berjoget bersama dengan lagu "macarena", hahahaha....

Yang satu ini emang sangat spesial, ditambah bahwa Cindy kebanyakan diemnya dari pada cuap2nya, That's a BIG Surprise! semua orang terkesima, terkaget-kaget(apaan sih?)hahaha.... ternyata dia baru tidur 1 jam kemaren, karena abis mancing ama pamannya, dan dia harus begadang lagi bwat Chat Party! Tetapi dia tetep jadi

THE LAST ONE WHO SURVIVE IN THE CHAT PARTY!!!hahaha....She's just being Cindy!The abnormal and totally Crazy Cindy! hehehehe...

well, I really had a great time guys! I love you all, and I also love you Jeremy and Orlando!Lets do this again, very soon...(Andrew, I'm waiting...hehehe)

whoaahh! menakutkan! waktu berjalan sangat cepat!

sekarang udah April 2006...! ga kebayang! Cepet amat! dan...dan...gw udah kuliah lebih dari 6 bulan!SEgalanya berubah, banyak yang berubah,waduh..waduh..waduh.. gw ga inget apa aj yang udah gw lakukan? Banyak yang terjadi, 18 tahun...uhh..

LIfe...will just like a life...!

why life is sooo sux sometimes???
You must follow the damn rule, listen whatever silly people say that you even don't care about it or even it didnt match with ya? jugde you with anything they can found.Why people can not understand that everyone is different? everyone has a different thought? every single human has a HEART that maybe you can hurt it easily! why people can't just stop and look at theirself? Let everyone else do what they want to do!
You see someone with an odd habit that you think it's not good, so what???maybe he/she thinks it is exiting? so why you really care about it and talk with your friends about him/her as he/she is a criminal? it doesn't bother you anyway. maybe you don't realize that it will make you as the most mean people in the world. You make him/her lost his/her spirit, you make him/her down.
Why this little silly people didnt just dissapear?? if it does, World will be a better place, and more peacefull.

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Found myself today
Oh I found myself and ran away
Something pulled me back
The voice of reason I forgot I had
All I know is just you're not here to say
What you always used to say
But it's written in the sky tonight

Seen that ray of light
And it's shining on my destiny
Shining all the time
And I wont be afraid
To follow everywhere it's taking me
All I know is yesterday is gone
And right now I belong
Took this moment to my dreams

It doesn't matter what people say
And it doesn't matter how long it takes
Believe in yourself and you'll fly high
And it only matters how true you are
Be true to yourself and follow your heart

So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
Someone's watching over me

Confidence with your Dream!

"Finding out what you want to do the rest of your life is really important. One dream can change the world. Keep following your dream, because no dream is too extreme.Keep pursuing your dreams. Don't give up. If it's a passion for you, and your parents feel good about it and don't push too much, you'll make it. Have a lot of confidence in yourself."

-Billy Gilman-

Shade Of Life

.....
The Color of sky is blue and grey
The Color of earth is green and brown
The color of hope is rainbow and purple
And
The Color of Peace is people Together
.....

-RIP. Mattie J.T. Stepanek-

Carasel 2006

sebenernya telat seh, tapi ga apa2 lah...

Menurut gw carasel yang diadakan adik2-quw tercinta(walah kayak kenal aja, hehehe), bisa terbilang sukses...Penontonnya kayaknya pada terhibur dan pada berjoget ria..hahaha.. yah walaupun tidak sepenuh waktu angkatan gw yang sampai sesak tapi lumayan lah, lagian penuh2 juga ga enak, ngeliannya susah, ya ngga??

well, I just wanna say Good Job for All the crew Carasel 2006!

semoga tahun depan ada lagi yah! Ayo Semangat anak2 angkatan 2007!!

-Happy Islamic New year-

I just want to say happy 1427 H, To all muslim in the world! Hope everything will be better than last year.May Allah give us opportunities to share more love and peace to everybody around, also to give the best that we could.

On Being A champion

A champion is a winner,
A hero..
Someone who never gives up
Even when the going gets rough

A champion is a member of A winning team...
Someone who overcomes challenges
Even when it requires creative solutions.

A champion is an optimist,
A hopeful spirit...
Someone who plays the game,
Even when the game is called life.

There can be a champion in each of us,
If we live as a winner,
If we live as a member of the team,
If we live with a hopeful spirit,
For Life.

in memorial of Mattie J.T. Stepanek

I miss you....

- It Matters -

It matters that the world knows
We must celeberate the gift of life
Everyday in some way
We must always remember to play after every storm

All chidren are truly bessed
With the innocent gift of gentelness, trust , and compassion
To guide the wisdom of the grown-ups
We all have a song in our heart
that inspires us in good times and hard times
If we take the time to listen

Our senses help discover the hidden and non-hidden
Enchantment in life, if we use them
We must carefully chooce our words and wants
Or we could forever hurt others
with these dangerous weapons
strength and value of all things created
Must be measured by character and commitment
Rather than by might and by wealth

We must head the lessons of everyday life
Through the celebration of children and heartsongs,
senses and words
Or we could lose in our journey to the future

It matters

The person by my name and being existed
With a strong spirit and an eternal mindset
To become a peacemaker for all
by sharing the things that really matter

For Our World

We need to stop, just stop
Stop for a moment
Before anybody says or does anything
That may hurt anyone else

We need to be silent, jsut silent
Silent for a moment
Before we forever lose the blessing of songs
That grow in our hearts

We need to notice, just notice
Notice for a moment
Before the future slips away into ashes and dust of humility

Stop, be silent, and notice
In so many ways, we are the same
our differences are unique trasures
We have, we are, a mosaic of gifts
To nurture, to offer, to accept

We need to be, just be
Be for a moment
Kind and gentle, innocent and truesting
Like children and lambs
Never judging or vegeful
Like the judging and the vegeful

And now, let us pray
Differently, yet together
Before there is no earth, no life
No chance for peace
Peace for our world...for our world